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wdof¾ lroaÈ wïudj;a wu;l lrmq WfmalaIdf.a mdfmdaÉpdrKh

uu Ôú;h mq¿jka;rï ieye,a¨‍fjka i;=áka .;lrkak wdihs' ta;a fmdä ldf,a b|,u ;snqK .eg¨‍ tlal ieye,a¨‍j we;slr.kak yqÕla wudre jqKd'

biafldaf, hk ldf, jqK;a uu f.dvla lemSfmfkk pß;hla fkfjhs' kuq;a l,djg ;snqK wdidj ksid l,djg iïnkaO jqKdfka' t;ek§ ú;rla udj biau;= jqKd' f.dvla fj,djg uu yß ksy~hs' jeäh iudcfha .ejfikak wdi kE' úúO;ajhg wdi kE lshk tl fkfjhs' á%ma hkjd' hd¿fjda blal bkakjd' ta;a jeämqru leue;s f.org fj,d bkak'

;efka yeáhg wefKa .ykjd lshk tl fmdä ldf,a b|,u wïud uf.a weÕg od,d ;sfhkjd' ´kEu ;rd;srul mqoa.,fhlaj wdY%h lrkak ´k úÈh uu okakjd' ta ksid by<u me<eka;sfha flk;a my<u me<eka;sfha flk;a ug tlu úÈhg m%;spdr olajkjd'

ug flaka;s hkjd' wksjd¾hfhkau flaka;s hkjd' fudlo ug fldfydug;a fndrej Wyq,kak nE' l=vqldrfhla jqK;a we;a; lshkjd kï ug mq¿jka iudj fokak' ´ku flfkla we;a; lshkjd kï ug mq¿jka yß je/oao f;areï .kak' uu ljodj;a lsisu ukqiaifhlaj fldka lrkafka kE' wks;a tl úkh lshk tl;a ug f,dl= m%Yakhla' .re l< hq;= flkdg .re lrkafka ke;akï ug flaka;s hkjd' yenehs oeka uu msg wh fjkqfjka kï flaka;s .kafka kE' yenehs ug fudkjd yß lsõfjd;a kï tal uf.a .re;ajhg m%Yakhla kï uu l;d lrkjd'

m%Yakhla wdju ug l;d lrkaku ´k' ug lsisu m%Yakhla ysf;a ;shdf.k bkak nE' ´ku m%Yakhla ug l;d lr,d úi| .kak mq¿jka' t;ekÈ wks;a md¾Yajh fndre lrkjd lsh,d oekqfKd;a uu whska fjkjd' wehs uu yßhg w~kjd' wksjd¾hfhkau w~kjd' w~k tl ;uhs tl me;a;lska ug ;sfhk f,dl=u iykh' iuyr wh ÿlla oekqKu fldfya yß .syska bkakjd' weúÈkak hkjd' hd¿fjda tlal l;d lrkjd' ta;a ug ta lsisu fohla yßhkafka kE' ug w~kak ´k' f*daka tl;a Ogg lrf.k ldurhg fj,d yqol,d fjkak ;uhs leue;s' tfyu ;kshu w~k wjia:d wkka;hs'

wms leue;af;ka bmÿfk;a kE' leue;af;ka uefrkafk;a kE' ljod fldfydu uefrkjo lsh,d wmsg lshkak;a nE' uu ljodj;a ys;=fõ kE wjqreÿ 30§ wo uu fï bkak ;ekg ths lsh,d' Ôú;hg fudlla yß .eg¨‍jla wdfjd;a uu leue;shs Wmfoia .kak' neßu jqfKd;a .eg¨‍j fldf<al ,sh,d jdis wjdis fm<.iaikjd'

ug f.dvla hd¿fjda kE' Ôú; ld,hgu <Õska bkak hd¿fjda lsh,d ljqrej;au ug kE' yenehs wjia:dkql+,j lsÜgqjk msßila bkakjd' thd,d ux .ek ys;kjd we;af;a yß ieye,a¨‍ flfkla lsh,d ;uhs'

ieye,a¨‍ jeälug iuyr fj,djg hd¿jkaf.a ys; ßÈ,d ;sfhkjd' Tkak ojila biafldaf, ldksj,a tlla ;snqKd' tod kgkak ;sfhk wdidjg uu hd¿jdj ;kslr,d .syska kegqjd' hd¿jg kgkak nE' thd lsõjd ug thd <Õ b|ka kgkak lsh,d' ta;a ug ´k jqfKa Éí tl <Õg fj,d kgkak' uu .shd' uf.a ieye,a¨‍jg ndOd jk lsisu fohla uu jeäh weÕg .kafka kE'

uu uf.a ùla fmdhskaÜ yßhg fydhk flfkla' wms ljqre;a W;am;a;sfhkau fyd| ñksiaiq fj,d wdfõ kE' fyd| fjkak kï W;aidyh ;sfhkak ´k' uu uf.a ùla fmdhskaÜ fudkjo lsh,d lsÜgqu whf.ka wykjd' yßhg ne¨‍fjd;a uf.a ùla fmdhskaÜ lSmhlau ;sfhkjd' wdorh lrk flkdg f.dvlau lsÜgq ùu m%Odku ÿ¾j,;djla lsh,d lshkak mq¿jka' iuyr fj,djg ug udj;a wu;l fj,d wdorh lrk flkdf.a .;s ,la‍IK uu .kakjd' lEu loaÈ jqK;a thd wdi ke;s fohg uu;a leue;s kE' uf.a Ôú;fha ug mdvqjla fjkafka wdorh ksid ú;rhs' fudlo uu fmïj;dj wfma uq¿ f,dalhu lr.kakjd' thd,g leue;s leue;s úÈhg wms fjkia fjkjd' tal ;uhs ug ;snqK f,dl=u ÿ¾j,lu'

j¾;udkfha uu hd¿fj,d bkak flkdf.a l;d ffY,sh yß fjkia' ug jeäh yd;amiskau fjkia' kuq;a uf.a l;d ffY,sh oeka Tyqf.a úÈhg fjkia fj,d' tal kï krl fohla fkfjhs' ta;a wfma wïug;a yß mqÿuhs uu l;d lrkjd oelalu'uu ksÈh.kak kï f.dvla wdihs' udkislj f.dvla uykais fjkjdfka' rÕmdkak .shdu ldhslj;a uykais fjkjd' ta ksid iuyr fj,djg weÕ ysßjefgk ;rug uu ksod.kakjd'

jev lroaÈ ug flaka;s hkjdfk' b;ska iuyr fj,djg ug ysf;kjd wmrdfo uu tfyu flka;s .;af; iQla‍Iauj lmálfuka ´k foa lr.kak ;snqKd lsh,d' fï <ÕÈ uf.a f,alïj udrelrkak isÿjqKd' ta isoaêh fj,dfj;a wka;sug ug ys;=fKa tal'

uu fÊiqia jykafiaj oeä f,i woykjd' yenehs ug f.dvlau ys;g jeÿfKa l=fõÜj, m,a,sh ;uhs' fufyÈkï ks;r m,a,s hkak ,efnkafka kE' m,a,shlg mkai,lg .sh;a oeka mqreÿ ksoyfia bkak ,efnkafka kE' ckm%sh ùfï wjdish ;uhs ta'

.Ekq <ufhla ksid uu ál ál b;sß lrkjd' ,xldfõ tfyu f.dvla b;sß lrkak kï wudrehs' mq¿jka úÈhg b;sß lrkjd' rÕmdkak yeuodu nE jf.au foaYmd,kh;a wúksYaÑ;hs' ldgj;a w;mdkafka ke;sj bkak ´k ksid oekg;a b;sß lr.;a; iq¿ uqo,la ;sfhkjd'ldf,ka ldf,g ug tl tl úfkdaodxY ;sì,d ;sfhkjd' ta;a È.gu ;snqK tlu úfkdaodxYh ;uhs Ñ;% we£uhs k¾;khhs' oeka kï Ñ;% w¢kak udkisl ksoyila kE' Ñ;%mg n,kak;a f.dvla wdihs'

fïl uu fndfydu úYajdifhka lshkafka' rx.k Ys,amskshl fjkfldg uu ys;df.k ysgmq fohla ;uhs uu ljodj;a Èlalido fjkafka kE lshk tl' uu wdorh lroaÈ uf.a wïud u;l kE' uf.a jD;a;sh u;l kE' ug;a udj;a jevla kE' uf.a uq¿ f,dalhu thd fjkjd' tal je/Èhs' ishhg ishhlau je/Èhs' tfyu jqKdu ta md¾Yajhg;a udj lrorhla jqKdo lsh,d ug oeka ysf;kjd' uu thd u;af;uhs' thdg;a w.h ke;sj hkjd' uu yeu fj,dfju <Õ oejá oejá bkak leue;s wdorhg yß f,dan flfkla' ta;a wo uu Èlalido jqKq flfkla yeáhg lshkafka' ug ta iïnkaOh ;shd.kak kï ;j lrkak b;sßfj,d ;snqfKa ish Èú kid.kak tl ú;rhs' ta ;rï lemlsÍï lr, bjrhs ta fjoaÈ' yenehs wo ojfia kï uu wdorh fjkqfjka ta ;rï lemlsÍï lrkafka kE' uu uf.a wïudg" jD;a;shg" ug ;ekla §,d ;uhs wdorh lrkafka'

wjqreÿ 9 uu <ud ksjdihlg .shd' tod ug ljod yß <ud ksjdihla yokak ´k lsh,d ySkhla we;s jqKd' tÉprhs ySkhla úêhg ;snqfKa' ta ySfk;a w;yeßhd' fudlo <ud ksjdi kï ´k;rï ;sfhkjd' w¨‍f;ka yokjg jvd fyd|hs tajg Wmldr lrk tl' wog;a ug ksYaÑ; wruqKla kE' fyd| ukqIHfhla ùu ;uhs uf.a i;=g' fï wd;afuÈ Tlafldu mõ f.j, B<Õ wd;afug mska tl;= lrf.k hk tl ;uhs uf.a tlu wruqK'
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